Ollie, ollie oxen free......not it! Sorry, I read section three and did not want to comment too soon, and realized the days passed me by.
This section just reiterates the struggles Joe has had to overcome in his life. I am just amazed at everything he goes through and still can feel okay with is father. My heart just keeps breaking for him. He has to sneak in visits to see his Dad, then his Dad tells him he can come see his siblings at times Thula and he are away. While spending his short visits with his Dad, it appears all his Dad can do is talk about himself, and never seems to ask Joe how he is doing, or anything about his rowing. Does he even know how good Joe is at the sport? I have seen no indication in all these pages where Joe shares with his father, he is on a rowing team, and they won a very prestigious rowing match.
So now Thula has died. Joe feels the the ground shifting from under him.
pg. 250 "Over the years he had pondered what he might have done to make things better between them later, when the trouble had started. How he might have tried harder to get along with her, to sympathize with her own cramped circumstances, maybe even to see at least some of what his father had seen in her.
Now he would never have a chance to show her what he could become. But he also found that there were limits to his regret, and beyond a certain point he simply couldn't feel much of anything for her. Mostly, he worried about his father, and even more about his half siblings.
It astounds me how Joe even gives a thought to him being able to show Thula what he could become. This woman could have cared less about him. She was more interested in cramped living quarters and achieving her goals as a violinist.
Joe goes to see his father and what does he hear?
"Finally, he turned to Joe and said, "Son, I've got a plan. I'm going to build a house where we can all live together. As soon as it's done, I want you to come home."
Joe finally allows himself to feel anger, an emotion Joyce had asked him about earlier:
But he drove back to the YMCA that night not sure what to do, confusion morphing into resentment, resentment merging into silent anger, and anger giving way again to confusion, all of it washing over him in waves.
Joe is not only struggling with the fact he is not able to stay focused with his rowing, that the coach is losing confidence in him, but he is also having to struggle now with the emotions of losing the camaraderie of his two rowing mate, Thula's death, and his father's expectations of coming to live with them. Not to mention, he has to come up with the money for this next year of college. All I can say is the lyrics in from a Kelly Clarkson comes to my mind...."What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger." Well, Joe should be a man of steel.
The one bright spot in these pages of this section is that Pocock has taken Joe under his wing.