Barb, when I retired unexpectedly two years ago this April, I was worried about what I personally was going to do that would give me purpose in life. I still have small and teenage grandchildren playing sports, so I knew they were going to keep me very busy, but personally I wanted something I could call
"my own." I began volunteer work with a non profit Pro Life organization called Heartbeat of Toledo, and met many wonderful co volunteers, not to mention the wonderful pregnant Moms I met and was educating with our classes. Other cities have a Hearbeat organization as well, you mind check into. I also went back to teaching CCD religion classes, nothing brings me more joy than teaching and children. You could look into things nearby that you could become active in as a volunteer. I know when I am helping or teaching others, I leave with the biggest smile on my face, and joy in my heart. I also began visiting my nearby libraries. You love reading so maybe it's possible your library could use a part time worker or volunteer. If you have any hospitals nearby there may be a volunteer program where you can go and hold/rock infant babies. I know there are programs that ask for knitted newborn baby caps to be donated. Have you ever considered moving closer to your family members? Like Pat pointed out, you have had a lot of changes and things happening to you in the past couple of years, and now retirement to add to it. Give yourself a little while to digest this and see what the new path God has for you. I always like to remind myself of the saying by Woodrow Kroll,
“When God closes a door, He always opens a window.” This past Thursday our County Commissioner and Council members held a public meeting for our District 6 to come and voice our concerns about the new proposed jail site they have chosen in our District. We have formed a very large group in opposition of this new jail. After listening to all those who chose to speak, I approached the Commissioner and pressed him for answers as to why this site seems so important to build on, versus keeping the jail downtown. My hubby, neighbor and many others including myself left that night feeling very defeated, discouraged and concerned, because they seem hell bent on this site. We will regroup and fight this til the bitter end, but it is still causing my hubby and I much worry. I had a horrible dream last night about moving to a different place that I was not at all happy with. I woke up with a headache which I never get. I love my home, area and church community. I don't think we could find as nice a home somewhere else, for the price we pay in our house payment now. So, I am sharing some of your "
What do I do next?" worries. As a faith filled person, I pray and must have faith God will show me what is next for us. It's the time in between I need to learn to be more patient and calm with. We need to friend each other on Facebook so we can keep in touch.
https://www.facebook.com/marie.patterfritzreinhart add me if you like.
Pat, I agree, I don't think it will take the full week to discuss
Book Four. I certainly do not want to rush anyone, and I personally am going to be very sad to see this book come to an end, just let us know when you want us to begin reading
Book Five. We were posting at the same time, I will add my comments tomorrow when I can take a little more time to ponder on my thoughts as to the ending of
Book Four. Towles hit us with a lot to digest in this Book Four, and especially those last pages. I am still savoring the beautiful Chopin, friendships, laughter, and the Count's undying devoted love to his beautiful, doting, talented daughter Sofia.
Jonathan, I so hope our author gives us some closure where Nina and Leo are concerned. It would seem a shame to leave us wondering, not to mention I feel Sofia and the Count deserve to know what became of them. I am assuming they are both dead, because that can be the only explanation a mother would leave her child for this length of time, regardless if she knew she was in good care with the Count. Not to mention no letters of any kind. Loving your husband and having a passion for a political cause is one thing, but putting it above the love of your child seems so out of character for Nina. Or maybe I am just seeing something I want to see.