Oh, Bellamarie, I know so well the emotions you are describing. And yes, I think it is hard for all humans, and most especially mothers and grandmothers who spend more time fretting about the futures ahead of the children and grandchildren they will leave behind than do most men. All of the many threats to their well being and safety in the decades ahead. We start when they are born and worry about their feeding schedules, their shots, when they will turn over, sit up, walk, get potty trained, learn to talk, learn to tie their shoes, manage on their own in kindergarten, drive the family car on their own, handle themselves in college, and so on and on. We find so very many things in our very ordinary everyday lives to imagine them victims of, to add on such real life items as nuclear attacks, biological attacks, terrorist shootings in public places, rampant viruses or bacteria epidemics becomes unbearable.
Still, I do feel we owe it to ourselves and the overall family and community well being to read what the experts have to tell us in laymen's terms. Why do I stress this despite a sense of burnout and wanting to dive into an escapist novel instead? Because I feel knowledge brings a sense of empowerment and engenders much less panic in the long run. When we truly KNOW our enemy, we are achieving more than half the list of requirements to ward off their attacks. This is my true belief: we are endowed with the stuff to enable us to rise up and meet the foe and beat them with our higher intellects, and this is the challenge we are born to and the measurement of who we are.
At my great age, I have watched many presidents, and have seen every single one of them, and most especially the two-termers, age at from 2 to 3 times the normal rate. Look at pictures of George W. Bush being sworn in for the first time, and photos of his last State of the Union address. Now look at B. Obama's swearing in and a photo taken this week. The stress of what they know is a killer for any human being. The rest of us own much shorter lists of worries and knowledge!