Hmm
Leah this may be one of those bits that could be a lesson explaining folks who see themselves as victims, or those who today we call the "me" folks -
"empathy for another's discomfort may go out the window when an individual falls into self-pity" - without digressing into politics I am seeing this play out among many who are more concerned how government affects them than how it affects the greater circle who benefit.
I have to laugh because here you saw this Sonnet straight on and I had more trouble making heads or tails till I could see all sorts of new messages and explained the speaker as if he had dissected himself, as we all do when we see our body doing what our brain is rebelling against and we talk to our body as if a separate entity.
What got me going thinking this way was;
The beast that bears me, tired with my woe,
Plods dully on, to bear that weight in me,Who was tired with woe - the beast or me
Was the me plodding on or was the beast plodding on
Was me, my body bearing the weight or was the beast bearing the weight.
Something kicked in that I did not look up but I can almost still see Sr. Rose Imelda standing with chalk in hand writing and showing us across a large blackboard something about the last one referred to before a coma is what the next phrase is describing. Well this nonsense about who was tired and who was plodding along and who was bearing weight continues till; "
His rider lov'd not speed, being made from thee:"
Then I did throw up my hands - who in the world is "thee" - so then I had fun with it as if he was talking about himself in three parts - a body, mind and spirit - and the horse/the beast was simply a reference point that came in handy -
However, what did catch me and had me nodding my head were the last two lines;
For that same groan doth put this in my mind,
My grief lies onward, and my joy behind.Immediately thought of my putting off and putting off sorting all the numbers for the IRS - groan - grief ahead - no joy in Mudville - the joy of completing a job when I received the pay was behind me.
I also see this bit in myself as I age and various body parts do not work as well - groan - grief ahead as I learn to either compensate or do without - the joy of smoothly using that body part is behind me - then I have to snap to and make sure I'm conscious that other's are handling their secret groans.
Talk about fighting a war with yourself and then that was it - to me this poem is doing just that - he is fighting a war with himself regardless if he is talking to the horse or his body - he, or at least his body and the horse are all mixed together as if both are beasts of burden and his thoughts are outside himself, observing and complaining about his 'woe is me' and how he is so depressed he cannot spur himself forward acknowledging in his self talk that forward is nothing but more grief.
Been there, done that - nothing is going to change till he does - so get on the d___ horse and ride like the furies are after you and then rein in and realize it is what it is and if life is a rose garden then thorns come with it. Or at least that is how I handle it...